SHOULD I SEND IT

i wrote a letter.
i haven't sent it.
i haven't emailed it.
i haven't posted it.

i'm afraid to.

it is too a certain person about a certain topic.
i suppose the reason i have not sent it,
is because of the reason i
DEFINATLY
wouldn't say it
IN PERSON.

i don't want to get rejected.i don't want the other to freak out.
and not say anything.
or
not want to say it back,
because they don't think
what i think.

should i send it?

even if i did.
it doesn't have everything i want to say.
so i'm not even posting it,
and i'm too afraid to even WRITE what i want to say.
i wish life wasn't this complicated.
and i wish i was brave enough.

please help me.
i don't know what to do.
i want to know what they think.
i want to know if their room still contains,
what i pretend to be embarrassed and freaked out about.
when in actual fact. i love it.
i love that you feel the need to show what i mean.
or used to mean. if you removed it.
it makes me feel wanted,
so i hope you still have it.
keep it as long as you want :)

i think.. scratch that.. i KNOW what i feel.
just 3 words.
but for some reason they are the hardest words to say.
should i say them?
would i be rejected?
will i be forgotten or replaced,
before i have time or get the courage to say them?

i want you to say them.
just so i know i'm not alone.