This Should Be Real For Everyone Looking For True Love...
In Other Words, They Should Find It.

It's Almost Here!

Every year I sit down to watch the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show, It's become an annual/traditional thing. I love the pretty bras, panties, wings, costumes, music, heels and of course, Supermodels. Here is a Sneak Peak of this years fashion show.

Eat Up!

YUM YUM YUM!
Tomorrow I am celebrating my First Real
Thanksgiving! and I am oh-so-excited!
For the people that know me well,
I love to eat!
and feasts are even better!
There will be Turkey, gravy, cranberry sauce,
mashed potatoes, green bean cassarole,
carrots, ham, peacan pie, pumpkin pie,
apple pie, ice cream, and more more more!

But not only is there food,
the point of Thanksgiving is to celebrate what
your thankful for.
And trust me, I have alot to be thankful for!
Especially now!

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

Oh What a Wonderful Morning, Oh What a Wonderful Day!

WHAT A WONDERFUL DAY!
I found out I got the part of Millie,
in the 2010 Redlands Production of
Thoroughly Modern Millie!
I got my senior ring for
Fullerton Union High School!
And it's Thanksgiving tomorrow,
and i'm celebrating it in Oakland with my Cousins!

Plus it's a 4 day weekend! yipee!

How Utterly Confusing

this morning i made a toasty hot onion bagel,
covered it in thick creamy cream cheese,
and was very excited to eat it.
well as i started walking to school,
and out side was very cold, as it was early in the morning,
as i took my first bite, i noticed...
my bagel was freezing cold! the weather outside was
SO cold, IT MADE MY BAGEL COLD!
boo you weather.

I Wish This Was Real.

In the 2006 movie, The Devil wears Prada,
there is a designer called James Holt,
who is a fictional designer
made for the movie and book.
One of "his" pieces of work,
is a distressed, studded leather bag,
pieced by hand, finished with a metallic fringe.
AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL!
Sadly, it is not real.
I really want to find it!
Maybe if I just keep looking...

Don't Be Cruel

RIP - Daul Kim

Yesterday, korean model, Daul Kim, was found hanging in her paris appartment.

She had committed suicide from the pressure and stress of her occupation.

RIP. I hope your in a happier place.

The Fairest Of Them All - Great Supermodels

Some of the greatest supermodels of all time,

have once again come together again,
for yet another photoshoot.

Helena Christensen, Eva Herzigova and Claudia Schiffer
in 'The Fairest Of Them All'
Photographed by Kayt Jones
i-D Magazine Winter 2009

help?

i'm so confused.

i've been given an amazing opportunity.

which i'm experiencing now.

but its not as amazing as i'd hoped.

but now all of a sudden,

i've been given another option,

and i don't know if i should accept it,

or not.

if i do, i may regret it.

if i don't, i may continue being sad and lonely.

I Feel Pretty, Oh So Pretty!

I felt so loved today, I was walking down the street,

feeling rather unattractive in sweat pants, a sweatshirt and ugg boots,

my hair up in a messy ponytail (which i hadn't washed in 2 days),

and most of my make up washed off,

from my dance class an hour before.

When a guy in his, lets say early 20's,

who I had never seen in my life yelled out,

'YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!'

It's such a simple comment,

but it made me feel wonderful,

at my worst!

I love nice people.

Why won't this pain just go away?

I'm having one of those days. It's difficult to explain,

if your not going through the same thing.

Have you ever been on a holiday when your away from your friends,

your comforts, sometimes your family?

You would usually be away for lets say,

2 weeks, a month?

Well after around 4 days you get used to being away.

But around a week and a half in, you have one of those days,

where you would give ANYTHING to just be with your friends,

in a space your comfortable with.

For me that would be with the people I love,

in, what I like to call, a 'nest', watching movies,

and just laughing.

Well when you go away for a month tops,

think about being away for 4 months,

with 2 more to go.

It's a long time.

And I thought it had gone quite fast,

and was all excited as I have a few days less than 2 months to go,

but it is still a very long time.

Thats my day today.

I know what your thinking,

'Oh God, not again, her whole trip she's been complaining,

she never enjoyed herself!' So on so forth.

Well actually I have enjoyed myself.

I had an amazing time at summer camp,

and with my cousins,

and at the flea market,

during the school play practises and performances,

and in my dance classes.

I just haven't written about it much.

But today is not a fun day.

It's not like anythings changed,

everything is still the same,

and I had a wonderful weekend.

I just miss home.

More than usual.

I've missed my first formal.

I've missed many of my best friends birthdays,

I've missed parties,

I've missed cheering people up when their sad,

I've missed break ups, hook ups, people dating,

but most of all, I have just missed home.

I had a dream last night that my sisters and I were planning a party,

nothing special, but I was so happy, I was with my sisters.

I woke up and thought I was in my own bed, in my house,

in Lane Cove, New South Wales, Australia.

But when I opened my eyes, I saw blinds on the window,

and I realised I don't have blinds on my windows,

and I was not in that place.

I was still here.

In Nancy's bed, in Nancy's house,

in Fullerton, California, The United States of America.

And on top of all this, I just can't seem to sleep at night,

I'll go to bed early, I'll set my alarm, but instead of sleeping,

I will lie in my bed, staring at the ceiling, or pretend to sleep,

or do anything possible to sleep, but I'm not actually sleeping.

Which means when I hear my alarm and I haven't slept,

but I'm SO FREAKING TIRED, I decide to go to a half day of school.

and then I get yelled at.

IT DOENS'T COUNT HERE. AND I NEED SLEEP!

So just lay off. Thanks.

Well I hope this feeling goes away soon.

Until it does, I have,

One Month, Three Weeks, and 3 Days til I leave America,

and

One Month, Three Weeks, and 5 Days til i land in Australia.

Until I Die.

i'm searching for you.

if you read my blog, you have probably noticed

i write many posts about one particular person.

well this blog post, is alot more serious,

and has nothing to do with anything else i've written.

i know your both dead,

but i want to find you.

my family won't tell me anything, and i just want the truth.

i've been searching for answers as long as i can remember.

do you know how difficult it is to find

dead people? especially when you don't know anything about them.

i don't know your names, where your from, why you left,

why you died, where you died, if you knew about me,

and more and more questions.

but i want to know, i want to know everything.

everything and anything, that will explain me,

my life, my family.

now i don't want to seem disrespectful,

and i don't want to seem like i don't appriciate my life,

the people in my life and everything i've been given.

but i want to know, would my life be different if you had been there?

i'll keep searching until i find something, anything.

but until i do, can you two please tell me something,

so it's easier for me to find information about them?

I'm Callin' This The White Guy Fly!

My friends Bryce, Taylor and Chris made this up..

its actually longer, but they got distracted hahaha.

Enjoy!

p.s it's also now my ringtone!

Hold Me Tight

my dream last night consisted of,

me on a 144 bus driving up to the SCECGS bus stop,

you know the one after neutral bay junction?

as i pulled up to get off,

you were standing there holding a sign for me,

reading:

'WELCOME HOME PRETTY'

i ran up to you,

and gave you the biggest hug i have ever given you.

you hugged me back.

i hope that happens when i come home...

Minni Im Wunderland

Chanel Iman in 'Minni im Wunderland'

Photographed by Mark Seliger Scanned

by allaboutmodels - Vogue Germany December 2009

I Wanna Hold Your Hand.

last night, when i held someone elses hand,

and rested my head on their shoulder,

i pictured you as them.

i was so happy and comfortable.

it was inbetween the scenes of the play,

which reminded me even more of you,

as we used to do that.

when i come home,

do you want to hold my hand again?

BRITT BRITT

i miss my britt britt.

and i am very looking forward to going home,

and being able to finally play dance wars with her!

i haven't seen her in so long! i've spent 4 months here,

but i also hadn't seen her FOR AGES when i was home.

so thats probably like ONE YEAR!

lets hang out more when i come home. yes?

How About A Night Out?

this looks like fun.

but what a waste of alcohol!

Almost Invisible.

I WISH I WAS THAT CLEAN.

AND EVEN THOUGH IT'S COMPLETELY WHITE,

IT'S STILL COMFORTABLE AND HOMIE.

I LOVE IT.

Complete Solitude.

this looks heavenly.

maybe though with some shade,

as not to burn myself.

Make Me up.

i sure do love make up.

when i'm bored, i like to experiment

with different styles, types, designs,

anything and everything to do with make up.

do you to have a fasination with make up?

Molly Smiles

did you ever see the movie Uptown Girls?

do you remember the scene when dakota fannings character, Ray, finally lets go,

and dances. she is so carefree and spontaneous. this photograph reminds me of that.

everyone should let go at some point.

sooner rather than later.

We'll Stay Together As One.

this photo makes me smile.

i don't even know them.

but i wish at some point in my life..

i will be as happy as them.

Your Just Like Me.

THEIR JUST TWO NORMAL GIRLS..

I'M JUST LIKE THEM.

Throughout The Night.

i made a plan today.

a plan i am going to keep.

when i return home, Leda and I,
are going to make a picnic,
filled with platters of food,
from savory to sweet,
bottles of tempting drinks,
and boxes of board games.
we're going to take
sleeping bags, pillows,
doonas, quits, hamocks,
blankets and candles.
sit up on top of her newly built house,
in the open air,
underneath the starry sky,
underneath a bright full moon,
and stay up through the night,
then sleep through the morning.

what a wonderful way to spend my first days home.

Pin Me Up. Pin Me Down.

Miranda Kerr and Ana Beatriz Barros in

'Pin Me Up Pin Me Down'

Photographed by Willy Vanderperre.

V Magazine #62 November 2009

Just A Random Fact.

Did you know,

America does not have non-fake cheese?

Only fake plastic cheese.

I miss real cheese.

I am the BUSH MAN!

today my friends in IB theatre told me a funny story...

they went to san fran for a excursion one time,

and as they were walking down the street,

in groups might i add,

a man jumped out of a bush to each group,

at different times,

and screamed

"I AM THE BUSH MAN!"

while waving branches stuck to his arms,

around in a manic behaviour.

not only did he do this,

he also decided to run into the middle of the highway,

and pee.

as cars stopped around him,

he didn't even seem to notice.

when he finished peeing, he went off of the road,

and sat in his bush,

waiting to pounce on the next person(s)

that walked by HIS bush.

Another Day, Another Skype Call

this was the reaction from miss sophie june giles when she saw my

eighteenth birthday party dress i bought for next year...

it kind of speaks for itself.. after all, a picture is a thousand words.

Sometimes I Just Hate You. For No Reason.

STOP FUCKING MAKING ME CRY!
STOP FUCKING MAKING ME THINK I'VE DONE SOMETHING WRONG!
STOP FUCKING IGNORING ME!
STOP FUCKING CHANGING!
STOP FUCKING BEING ON MY MIND!
STOP FUCKING MAKING ME FEEL LONELY!
STOP FUCKING BEING YOUR WONDERFUL SELF!

Keith Me

Isabeli Fontana on cover Vogue Paris November 2009 and in

'Keith Me' Photographed by David Sims.

Scanned by diorette - Vogue Paris November 2009

-Wild thing, You make my heart sing,

You make everything groovy, Wild thing-