So I know you thought I was stupid when I wrote all those blog posts last year about a certain someone, and if you read this you'll think I'm strange, but I really need to get something off my chest. I don't understand you. Several months ago you asked me why I didn't trust you, I told you I'm afraid of getting hurt as I was when I was younger, you told me you will always love me and never hurt me. After a while I began to trust you, and soon after I gave you my complete trust because you promised if I did I wouldn't get hurt. Well you lied. Because now you fucked me over, you stopped loving me like you said wouldn't, you broke your promise, and now I find it even harder to trust people. I feel annoying because there hasn't been a single day that I haven't broken down and cried at least once to someone, and I feel they are getting sick of it. You completely fucked me up. How could you say something like that? How I could I believe you and start to trust you? How are you not even sad or regretting anything? And finally, how could you not come to me and tell me you thought something was wrong so we could have fixed it, instead of keeping it to yourself for an entire month, while I waited for you to come home, and then out of the blue, stop everything? I can't help but cry when I see you, and in your words as you once said to me "you're pretty much on my mind 90 percent of the time."
Fuck you for fucking me over, I will never trust again, or love, because I'm scared the same thing will happen all over again.
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