"Backstage at Galliano, is like a cow herd. Like, I literally felt like a cow about to moo."

- Speaking from the heart, Miss Rachel Zoe.

HA!

Do You See What I See?

i saw this is entertainment magazine..

now i can't be the only one thinking,

this looks a little odd.

What the fuck were they thinking when they put this in a magazine?

Bite Me?

Someday My Prince Will Come. Hopefully.

Now I know I write too much about things/people I miss..

But it only means I love and care for them.

For the last few weeks/month I've been trying to lay off,

I came to a realisation that maybe you'll miss me more if I'm not always there.

Now how much more 'not there' can I be, when I'm on the other side of the world?

And even though I've been trying to be distant,

my body and mind aches every hour of every day I don't hear from you.

I've written you emails, messages, comments - but not so much that I look like a stalker -

But you never respond, or if you do and I write back, you don't.

Why? Is there a reason, or are you just too lazy or busy for me?

How can you be busy, you don't have a job, you don't have exams,

you finished school, schoolies is over..

Now I know this is obvious about who I am writing about,

But you don't even read this. I wish you would.

But if you don't even respond to me,

why would you read/care about what I write.

Mostly about you.

Do you even know I have a blog? Has anyone told you?

I think I told you, but you went offline.

I want someone to tell you, casually, to read my blog.

Will you even listen to them?

Oh and by the way. I thought the name you called me,

was special for me and me only.

But yesterday I saw you wrote a comment to someone...

You used that name.

Please just tell me if i'm annoying, or if you want me to go away,

otherwise I'm just wasting my time. And I could be looking for someone else to love,

even though my love will always have some part here for you.

How High?

i would really like some skin tight, thigh high, red soled, black, leather platform, five-inch, stiletto boots! Like Taylor Jacobson from The Rachel Zoe Project.
Pretty Please with a cherry on top.

This Should Be Real For Everyone Looking For True Love...
In Other Words, They Should Find It.

It's Almost Here!

Every year I sit down to watch the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show, It's become an annual/traditional thing. I love the pretty bras, panties, wings, costumes, music, heels and of course, Supermodels. Here is a Sneak Peak of this years fashion show.

Eat Up!

YUM YUM YUM!
Tomorrow I am celebrating my First Real
Thanksgiving! and I am oh-so-excited!
For the people that know me well,
I love to eat!
and feasts are even better!
There will be Turkey, gravy, cranberry sauce,
mashed potatoes, green bean cassarole,
carrots, ham, peacan pie, pumpkin pie,
apple pie, ice cream, and more more more!

But not only is there food,
the point of Thanksgiving is to celebrate what
your thankful for.
And trust me, I have alot to be thankful for!
Especially now!

THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

Oh What a Wonderful Morning, Oh What a Wonderful Day!

WHAT A WONDERFUL DAY!
I found out I got the part of Millie,
in the 2010 Redlands Production of
Thoroughly Modern Millie!
I got my senior ring for
Fullerton Union High School!
And it's Thanksgiving tomorrow,
and i'm celebrating it in Oakland with my Cousins!

Plus it's a 4 day weekend! yipee!

How Utterly Confusing

this morning i made a toasty hot onion bagel,
covered it in thick creamy cream cheese,
and was very excited to eat it.
well as i started walking to school,
and out side was very cold, as it was early in the morning,
as i took my first bite, i noticed...
my bagel was freezing cold! the weather outside was
SO cold, IT MADE MY BAGEL COLD!
boo you weather.

I Wish This Was Real.

In the 2006 movie, The Devil wears Prada,
there is a designer called James Holt,
who is a fictional designer
made for the movie and book.
One of "his" pieces of work,
is a distressed, studded leather bag,
pieced by hand, finished with a metallic fringe.
AND IT IS BEAUTIFUL!
Sadly, it is not real.
I really want to find it!
Maybe if I just keep looking...

Don't Be Cruel

RIP - Daul Kim

Yesterday, korean model, Daul Kim, was found hanging in her paris appartment.

She had committed suicide from the pressure and stress of her occupation.

RIP. I hope your in a happier place.

The Fairest Of Them All - Great Supermodels

Some of the greatest supermodels of all time,

have once again come together again,
for yet another photoshoot.

Helena Christensen, Eva Herzigova and Claudia Schiffer
in 'The Fairest Of Them All'
Photographed by Kayt Jones
i-D Magazine Winter 2009

help?

i'm so confused.

i've been given an amazing opportunity.

which i'm experiencing now.

but its not as amazing as i'd hoped.

but now all of a sudden,

i've been given another option,

and i don't know if i should accept it,

or not.

if i do, i may regret it.

if i don't, i may continue being sad and lonely.

I Feel Pretty, Oh So Pretty!

I felt so loved today, I was walking down the street,

feeling rather unattractive in sweat pants, a sweatshirt and ugg boots,

my hair up in a messy ponytail (which i hadn't washed in 2 days),

and most of my make up washed off,

from my dance class an hour before.

When a guy in his, lets say early 20's,

who I had never seen in my life yelled out,

'YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL!'

It's such a simple comment,

but it made me feel wonderful,

at my worst!

I love nice people.

Why won't this pain just go away?

I'm having one of those days. It's difficult to explain,

if your not going through the same thing.

Have you ever been on a holiday when your away from your friends,

your comforts, sometimes your family?

You would usually be away for lets say,

2 weeks, a month?

Well after around 4 days you get used to being away.

But around a week and a half in, you have one of those days,

where you would give ANYTHING to just be with your friends,

in a space your comfortable with.

For me that would be with the people I love,

in, what I like to call, a 'nest', watching movies,

and just laughing.

Well when you go away for a month tops,

think about being away for 4 months,

with 2 more to go.

It's a long time.

And I thought it had gone quite fast,

and was all excited as I have a few days less than 2 months to go,

but it is still a very long time.

Thats my day today.

I know what your thinking,

'Oh God, not again, her whole trip she's been complaining,

she never enjoyed herself!' So on so forth.

Well actually I have enjoyed myself.

I had an amazing time at summer camp,

and with my cousins,

and at the flea market,

during the school play practises and performances,

and in my dance classes.

I just haven't written about it much.

But today is not a fun day.

It's not like anythings changed,

everything is still the same,

and I had a wonderful weekend.

I just miss home.

More than usual.

I've missed my first formal.

I've missed many of my best friends birthdays,

I've missed parties,

I've missed cheering people up when their sad,

I've missed break ups, hook ups, people dating,

but most of all, I have just missed home.

I had a dream last night that my sisters and I were planning a party,

nothing special, but I was so happy, I was with my sisters.

I woke up and thought I was in my own bed, in my house,

in Lane Cove, New South Wales, Australia.

But when I opened my eyes, I saw blinds on the window,

and I realised I don't have blinds on my windows,

and I was not in that place.

I was still here.

In Nancy's bed, in Nancy's house,

in Fullerton, California, The United States of America.

And on top of all this, I just can't seem to sleep at night,

I'll go to bed early, I'll set my alarm, but instead of sleeping,

I will lie in my bed, staring at the ceiling, or pretend to sleep,

or do anything possible to sleep, but I'm not actually sleeping.

Which means when I hear my alarm and I haven't slept,

but I'm SO FREAKING TIRED, I decide to go to a half day of school.

and then I get yelled at.

IT DOENS'T COUNT HERE. AND I NEED SLEEP!

So just lay off. Thanks.

Well I hope this feeling goes away soon.

Until it does, I have,

One Month, Three Weeks, and 3 Days til I leave America,

and

One Month, Three Weeks, and 5 Days til i land in Australia.

Until I Die.

i'm searching for you.

if you read my blog, you have probably noticed

i write many posts about one particular person.

well this blog post, is alot more serious,

and has nothing to do with anything else i've written.

i know your both dead,

but i want to find you.

my family won't tell me anything, and i just want the truth.

i've been searching for answers as long as i can remember.

do you know how difficult it is to find

dead people? especially when you don't know anything about them.

i don't know your names, where your from, why you left,

why you died, where you died, if you knew about me,

and more and more questions.

but i want to know, i want to know everything.

everything and anything, that will explain me,

my life, my family.

now i don't want to seem disrespectful,

and i don't want to seem like i don't appriciate my life,

the people in my life and everything i've been given.

but i want to know, would my life be different if you had been there?

i'll keep searching until i find something, anything.

but until i do, can you two please tell me something,

so it's easier for me to find information about them?

I'm Callin' This The White Guy Fly!

My friends Bryce, Taylor and Chris made this up..

its actually longer, but they got distracted hahaha.

Enjoy!

p.s it's also now my ringtone!